Yesterday I was feeling aggressive, as usual, which rarely pays off honestly. The aggression was turned away, but then she delighted Me by unfastening My boxers. I'll not bore [read spoil, I'm trying to get paid as a writer after all] any of you with the exact details but as I stood there I got to enjoy her use her lips, tongue and hands to please Me.
That is until someone began squirming, as they tend to do after 7 months in a cramp space. So I sat and got comfortable while she recovered. Eventually she moved to the floor on all fours to help ease the pressure [I assume, never had a head pressing into My pelvis]. After a short time she began another unexpected supprise, a bit of foot worship.
Needless to say that was more than enough to prompt Me to seek some relief while the kids were still sleeping. So sitting there with her rear hiked high in the air and her lips wandering and pleasing My foot I came. Hopefully things will improve along this same path.
Until later...
Monday, June 23, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
To Bind And To Conquer
I know it's been over a month since My last post. Things have been...strained...to say the least. For a VERY short recap sex has been mostly a no go still, maybe once a month, and because of a misunderstanding last night it might stay like that a while longer. All the pent up anger and frustration came to a head last night and Wwe ended up having a long conversation late into the night leaving Uus on little to no sleep today.
What it boils down to is that things have changed in Oour lives so quickly Wwe've never really taken time to reevaluate what Wwe want and how Wwe plan on going about providing it. In that respect I have just as much fault as she does and I wouldn't begin to say otherwise.
Since I have been doing a lot of soul searching when it comes to My writing it was nothing to shift gears and think long and hard on My relationship. From the things she had to say last night it boils down to what I want and how I want things to be in Oour life. That is infinitely simple yet so utterly complex in the same moment.
Boiling down everything to a basic level and building from there is simple enough, the real questions come when she enters the picture. What if she can't commit herself to those basic desires? What if she does, but not whole-heartily? How long would she be able to keep up a facade if she wasn't fully committed? What would I do if it fell apart again?
Then again I might just be over analyzing. After all these are going to be basic wants and expectations. Simple things that won't be hard to follow. I mean after all despite enjoying the bondage aspect of BDSM relationships its not a constant desire in Me. I enjoy the D/s aspect of it much more...almost to a fault some might say. With enough sensuality I could grow quite comfortable with just D/s.
Offline I'm working on a list of those base desires, trying to keep it simple but describing them fully enough that there is no doubt what expectations will be. Once they are finished and she knows them though what do I do as punishment for falling short of those expectations? I ask this first because rewards are so much easier. Physical punishment has more Cons than Pros usually, emotional and mental likewise. Things akin to 'timeout' are punishment to Me as well so never set well with Me.
Why think about punishment already? Everyone slips up. And yes, I know self-wrought punishment is far worse than what anyone else could devise but without proper rewards and punishments then its just human nature to become complacent.
With all that said I'm going to close this off for now and come back to it later after a bit more thinking and working.
What it boils down to is that things have changed in Oour lives so quickly Wwe've never really taken time to reevaluate what Wwe want and how Wwe plan on going about providing it. In that respect I have just as much fault as she does and I wouldn't begin to say otherwise.
Since I have been doing a lot of soul searching when it comes to My writing it was nothing to shift gears and think long and hard on My relationship. From the things she had to say last night it boils down to what I want and how I want things to be in Oour life. That is infinitely simple yet so utterly complex in the same moment.
Boiling down everything to a basic level and building from there is simple enough, the real questions come when she enters the picture. What if she can't commit herself to those basic desires? What if she does, but not whole-heartily? How long would she be able to keep up a facade if she wasn't fully committed? What would I do if it fell apart again?
Then again I might just be over analyzing. After all these are going to be basic wants and expectations. Simple things that won't be hard to follow. I mean after all despite enjoying the bondage aspect of BDSM relationships its not a constant desire in Me. I enjoy the D/s aspect of it much more...almost to a fault some might say. With enough sensuality I could grow quite comfortable with just D/s.
Offline I'm working on a list of those base desires, trying to keep it simple but describing them fully enough that there is no doubt what expectations will be. Once they are finished and she knows them though what do I do as punishment for falling short of those expectations? I ask this first because rewards are so much easier. Physical punishment has more Cons than Pros usually, emotional and mental likewise. Things akin to 'timeout' are punishment to Me as well so never set well with Me.
Why think about punishment already? Everyone slips up. And yes, I know self-wrought punishment is far worse than what anyone else could devise but without proper rewards and punishments then its just human nature to become complacent.
With all that said I'm going to close this off for now and come back to it later after a bit more thinking and working.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Limited PoV
Last night was a unique night to say the least. After going a few nights on little to no sleep I decided to take an Ambien to see if it would help. I felt some effects; My vision losing focus, minor reduction in coordination and motor skills, minor reduction in cognitive function. Shortly after feeling those My body and mind began overcompensating much like when I start to get a buzz from drinking and soon I was active and energetic, and probably less annoying than I would normally be thanks to Tokko being on Sci-Fi. What can I say, I love My anime? In the end it didn't help Me fall asleep but I did stay asleep once I was out. But all this isn't what I really wanted to mention.
Last night once Wwe went to bed she began fondling Me and quickly moved on from gentle teasing to a more wanton touch. Maybe it was in part thanks to the Ambien, but I give credit more to My aggression building over such a prolonged period for what happened next. I tossed down the sheets and told her to 'get down there' which she did without too much fuss, laying her head on My stomach for a close view of when I would climax. Normally this is all I ask for or force...normally.
This time it wasn't enough and I promptly started forcing her head lower, being none too gentle as I made her take My cock into her mouth. Once I felt her lips around it I began gripping her hair and pumping her head up and down unmindful of the occassional scrape of her teeth or gagging sound she made. Normally I prefer slow gentle oral to build to a potent release, but again I think and feel that all My pent up desires from being refused and denied so often had finally built to an apex. When I did finally fill her mouth with My cum I was torn between holding there forcing her to swallow before shoving her aside and just letting her go spit it out like usual. After keeping her there long enough to insure it was finished I let her go.
I will openly admit I enjoyed forcing her, and if things continue as they are it might end up happening more often. Honestly I'm supprised I lasted this long without being more forceful, despite all the urges to rip/cut cloth barriers off and take what I want. The only thing that worries Me after the fact is her feelings. In the moment I admit I don't particularly care what they are but that is the nature of the beast. Last night after Wwe [or should it be I] finished she rolled over and slept on her side of the bed rather than curl up next to Me. This morning though she didn't pull away when I moved close [despite pressing/rubbing something hard against her rear]. So I'm left to either assume she enjoyed it on some level or assume shes complacent with what happened knowing things could have been worse. I guess I'll find out later when this is read.
Last night once Wwe went to bed she began fondling Me and quickly moved on from gentle teasing to a more wanton touch. Maybe it was in part thanks to the Ambien, but I give credit more to My aggression building over such a prolonged period for what happened next. I tossed down the sheets and told her to 'get down there' which she did without too much fuss, laying her head on My stomach for a close view of when I would climax. Normally this is all I ask for or force...normally.
This time it wasn't enough and I promptly started forcing her head lower, being none too gentle as I made her take My cock into her mouth. Once I felt her lips around it I began gripping her hair and pumping her head up and down unmindful of the occassional scrape of her teeth or gagging sound she made. Normally I prefer slow gentle oral to build to a potent release, but again I think and feel that all My pent up desires from being refused and denied so often had finally built to an apex. When I did finally fill her mouth with My cum I was torn between holding there forcing her to swallow before shoving her aside and just letting her go spit it out like usual. After keeping her there long enough to insure it was finished I let her go.
I will openly admit I enjoyed forcing her, and if things continue as they are it might end up happening more often. Honestly I'm supprised I lasted this long without being more forceful, despite all the urges to rip/cut cloth barriers off and take what I want. The only thing that worries Me after the fact is her feelings. In the moment I admit I don't particularly care what they are but that is the nature of the beast. Last night after Wwe [or should it be I] finished she rolled over and slept on her side of the bed rather than curl up next to Me. This morning though she didn't pull away when I moved close [despite pressing/rubbing something hard against her rear]. So I'm left to either assume she enjoyed it on some level or assume shes complacent with what happened knowing things could have been worse. I guess I'll find out later when this is read.
Friday, May 9, 2008
A Drought Near An End
I've been bad [read exhausted] and haven't blogged in some time. Given My propensity to mention the sexual drought that's swept through My lovelife its only fitting I mention the good as well. In fact I would hate not to mention it and let everyone think that there is nothing but bad mojo in this house. Without further adue...
Several days ago Wwe had an appointment with WIC to insure the state flips the bill for formula. What came after the wifey got off work made the 3 freaking hours Wwe were in the clinic worth it. Since the appointment started around their nap time and it took more time than Wwe were expecting it was past the time I usually wake them up so I laid them down when Wwe got home and let them nap until nearly 7.
The wifey gets off around 5 usually and home around 5.5 so for most of that 1.5 hours the kids were out Wwe just sat on the couch relaxing. The light touching of My legs was nice and soothingly enjoyable...but then came the nails. Scraping. Stabbing. The first sign that more was to come. A substantual part of Me was hoping for oral considering how closer her face was to there as she continued, but I was not about to force it or mention it openly considering how much time and effort she was putting into one of the best hand jobs she's given in a long time. Infact the only one better than it was one where she made Me climax without Me having to assist. I was close this time, but by the time I was nearly there I'm sure her arm and wrist were getting tired and I have no shame in finishing what she starts if she joins in.
The next day I was woken to a hand job while the kids slept peacefully, even the DD [8m] who is usually up with or before Uus. Needless to say she's bought a few more weeks of patience on My part, though I'll not complain if she does more before that time is up.
Well that is all for now, Wwe'll see if I post anything about Mother's Day next week.
Several days ago Wwe had an appointment with WIC to insure the state flips the bill for formula. What came after the wifey got off work made the 3 freaking hours Wwe were in the clinic worth it. Since the appointment started around their nap time and it took more time than Wwe were expecting it was past the time I usually wake them up so I laid them down when Wwe got home and let them nap until nearly 7.
The wifey gets off around 5 usually and home around 5.5 so for most of that 1.5 hours the kids were out Wwe just sat on the couch relaxing. The light touching of My legs was nice and soothingly enjoyable...but then came the nails. Scraping. Stabbing. The first sign that more was to come. A substantual part of Me was hoping for oral considering how closer her face was to there as she continued, but I was not about to force it or mention it openly considering how much time and effort she was putting into one of the best hand jobs she's given in a long time. Infact the only one better than it was one where she made Me climax without Me having to assist. I was close this time, but by the time I was nearly there I'm sure her arm and wrist were getting tired and I have no shame in finishing what she starts if she joins in.
The next day I was woken to a hand job while the kids slept peacefully, even the DD [8m] who is usually up with or before Uus. Needless to say she's bought a few more weeks of patience on My part, though I'll not complain if she does more before that time is up.
Well that is all for now, Wwe'll see if I post anything about Mother's Day next week.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Of The Sleepless Nights
Its come to pass that this blog is My repository for complaints and issues I just can't or won't openly vocalize otherwise. When did I become a diary writer? I'll just tack it up to the domestication like many other things I do now.
For as long as I can recall sex has been a replacement for affection, and for the most part that is still true. More specifically she has become more affectionate than she used to be this pregnancy, but it seems at the cost of sex lately. It's been over a month since Wwe've done anything sexual, and not for lack of time or energy for once. It also hasn't been for lack of trying on My part I think. I've tried being subtle, and not so subtle, and the next stage is usually the 'fuck it' stage. Not this time though, as My mind slips into two different tracks of thought.
That first track is to be expected if you know anything of Me. Take what I want by force, and I don't mean just being rougher than usual. Think about that a moment, then feel free to get disgusted and close this blog out without finishing. If you're still reading would mentioning I would relish it to some degree run you off? Now that I'm finished with that I'll move on to My real concern, that other train of thought.
I'm not a self-conscious person. I think and feel what I want and give little care what anyone else thinks of it or Me. At least that is who I've been the better part of My life. These unwanted thoughts have been creeping into My mind slowly over the past year. Is it My fault? Am I less attractive now, since I have been putting on more weight? Have I been too aggressive? Not aggressive enough?
I've slept like shit lately because of all these thoughts, and I feel like doing next to nothing because of how exhausting it can be to keep My thoughts and actions in check and care for the kids. Hence the importance of her becoming more affectionate, as it is probably one of the only things keeping Me from slipping into anger and forceful actions because of My frustrations.
And now I'm done for now, and Wwe will see what comes of it.
For as long as I can recall sex has been a replacement for affection, and for the most part that is still true. More specifically she has become more affectionate than she used to be this pregnancy, but it seems at the cost of sex lately. It's been over a month since Wwe've done anything sexual, and not for lack of time or energy for once. It also hasn't been for lack of trying on My part I think. I've tried being subtle, and not so subtle, and the next stage is usually the 'fuck it' stage. Not this time though, as My mind slips into two different tracks of thought.
That first track is to be expected if you know anything of Me. Take what I want by force, and I don't mean just being rougher than usual. Think about that a moment, then feel free to get disgusted and close this blog out without finishing. If you're still reading would mentioning I would relish it to some degree run you off? Now that I'm finished with that I'll move on to My real concern, that other train of thought.
I'm not a self-conscious person. I think and feel what I want and give little care what anyone else thinks of it or Me. At least that is who I've been the better part of My life. These unwanted thoughts have been creeping into My mind slowly over the past year. Is it My fault? Am I less attractive now, since I have been putting on more weight? Have I been too aggressive? Not aggressive enough?
I've slept like shit lately because of all these thoughts, and I feel like doing next to nothing because of how exhausting it can be to keep My thoughts and actions in check and care for the kids. Hence the importance of her becoming more affectionate, as it is probably one of the only things keeping Me from slipping into anger and forceful actions because of My frustrations.
And now I'm done for now, and Wwe will see what comes of it.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Well Rested
For once in a long time. The bonus is I have a theory as to why. Last night while in bed I recieved a bit of attention below the waist from My doting girl. Nothing too involved like oral, just some gentle petting. It was relaxing, and that is something I have a hard time doing on My own. Now I doubt the region in question was the main component in that relaxation [in other words kissing/caressing someplace like the back would work too]. But that's all for now, its late, its raining, I'm the only one awake, and I need sleep. Just wanted that said while it was still on My mind.
Monday, April 14, 2008
A Swell Of Darkness
I know the wifey is loving and considerate, and 99% of the time she is a very good girl. The problem right now is mostly with Me. I have a few darker delights that I won't own up to publicly, even on an anonamous blog that no one reads. Ofcourse she knows about it, and didn't overreact when she found out. Which says a lot about how much love there is in the relationship. The problem comes during these long stints of no or sporatic intamacy. Last night after several not so subtle hints something needed to be said. During these long stints those thoughts and desires well up at an alarming rate until I need to do something about it. And I did. Last week I indulged those urges but have been hiding the evidence, up until now anyways since I'm removing it completely like she asked Me to do before. I don't like the fact that this...sickness...is rooted so deeply in Me. I just try to survive with it until I figure out how to be rid of it.
Friday, April 4, 2008
A Turn Of Events
It has been no secret that the sexlife of this relationship has suffered because of the third pregnancy. It's no small miricle that I've learned to deal with the lack of said attention pretty well. Such was not the case the night before last, and without further adue...
For whatever reason I was near enough her she could be naughty and play with My ass. After that continued for a couple moments I promptly interposed Myself between her hands and the kids field of view. Yes I'm a bit perv around the kids when they aren't looking, its My nature. Like the good girl she can be she played with it through My boxers with the promise of more later. Now I've heard that line before so I thought nothing of it and went on with the rest of the night preparing dinner and putting the kids down for bed. But...
As I sat down and got settled in she came over and knelt down between My feet, to which I promptly slid My drawers off so she wasn't impeaded. Much to My delight she began expertly stroking My shaft.
And let Me just say when I say expertly I mean it. In nearly 5 years of being together shes stroked Me off 5 times, sucked Me off once, and I've cum inside her during sex more times than I can count. This might not seem like a big deal but it is, I'm one of those that usually has to finish Himself off. Too much damage from extreme sports I think. Now back to your regularly sceduled post.
Now before long she began sucking, another sensation I'd missed during the tired stent that was her pregnancy. Neither action lasted nearly long enough to make Me climax, which doesn't bother Me since it's just as enjoyable to masterbate while shes eagerly watching. And watch she did laying semi-comfortably on the floor. After I finished she continued to play with herself for a bit down there before moving to the couch I vacated.
Kissing, licking, sucking, stroking her inner thighs...all while she played...continued for nearly as long as her stroking and sucking combined with My masterbation. Eventually the scent of her arrousal was more than I could stand being so close so I began tasting, running My tongue along that hot dampened slit. Then quite rapidly she falling over the edge. One right after another she came and came until, five climaxes later, she was spent and too sensitive for more.
Though I noticed I hadn't gone soft the entire time I didn't take her as badly as I wished too. After all, we've had a scare with the past pregnancy and neither of Uus want to risk that again. And well, thats all for the story of the night before last.
For whatever reason I was near enough her she could be naughty and play with My ass. After that continued for a couple moments I promptly interposed Myself between her hands and the kids field of view. Yes I'm a bit perv around the kids when they aren't looking, its My nature. Like the good girl she can be she played with it through My boxers with the promise of more later. Now I've heard that line before so I thought nothing of it and went on with the rest of the night preparing dinner and putting the kids down for bed. But...
As I sat down and got settled in she came over and knelt down between My feet, to which I promptly slid My drawers off so she wasn't impeaded. Much to My delight she began expertly stroking My shaft.
And let Me just say when I say expertly I mean it. In nearly 5 years of being together shes stroked Me off 5 times, sucked Me off once, and I've cum inside her during sex more times than I can count. This might not seem like a big deal but it is, I'm one of those that usually has to finish Himself off. Too much damage from extreme sports I think. Now back to your regularly sceduled post.
Now before long she began sucking, another sensation I'd missed during the tired stent that was her pregnancy. Neither action lasted nearly long enough to make Me climax, which doesn't bother Me since it's just as enjoyable to masterbate while shes eagerly watching. And watch she did laying semi-comfortably on the floor. After I finished she continued to play with herself for a bit down there before moving to the couch I vacated.
Kissing, licking, sucking, stroking her inner thighs...all while she played...continued for nearly as long as her stroking and sucking combined with My masterbation. Eventually the scent of her arrousal was more than I could stand being so close so I began tasting, running My tongue along that hot dampened slit. Then quite rapidly she falling over the edge. One right after another she came and came until, five climaxes later, she was spent and too sensitive for more.
Though I noticed I hadn't gone soft the entire time I didn't take her as badly as I wished too. After all, we've had a scare with the past pregnancy and neither of Uus want to risk that again. And well, thats all for the story of the night before last.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
One More Thing
It's A Girl!! I only wanted one but I'm still excided. Figured I would mention that before I forgot to.
And He Returns
I should have probably updated earlier on My return. Its been a few days and now I'm back and I will truely update later. For now just know that that both DS [22m] and DD [8m] are both with running noses and doped up on benadryl. I have offline updates I'll post later.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
While Away & : Fussy Day
Showered and shaved. Got that done so early because the ultrasound is today, and DD [7m] was being so damn fussy I put her down, let DS [21m] play in his room and took a nice long shower. Thankfully she went to sleep, since she's been cranky, crying and fussy since the wifey left for work. My head is still pounding, but its getting better. In other news the maternal on My side sent $100 as an anniversary gift (and no I didn't forget to mention it, 6 more days). Plus I've got My garden up and going rather well. I'll probably want a soil test kit here soon but for now they'll be fine. Next is a trellis for the tall plants and a 2x4 wheeled tray so its not such a bitch to move.
Well, going to try and be rid of this headache.
Well, going to try and be rid of this headache.
Monday, March 17, 2008
While Away xiS : To The Park
Nearly a week since My last post, and I was doing so well for a while. I kinda feel like I'm just dragging along this morning. I started the planter garden this weekend, got a few plants for it too. A couple tomatoe plants and a bell pepper, plus a jalapeno plant to go in a pot. Now for a few herbs and I'll be set for a time.
Wwe bought a few things for the kids. DS [21m] is transfixed by a Bob the Builder DVD Wwe got him. Its either that or all the cars he has to play with. Have to say I'm proud of him since he loves them so much without My intervention.
DD [7m] has been eating great and moving along the floor rather easily. She's not crawling, but she can roll over until she's where she wants to be.
Yesterday after shopping Wwe took them to the park out here. She had fun laying on a towel out in the sun. He was preoccupied with picking up and playing with the gravel or climbing up the slide. Leave it to My son to figure out the hardest way to get to the top of the slide and actually do it.
That's about it for now. Hopefully soon I'll actually get to post all of these online.
Wwe bought a few things for the kids. DS [21m] is transfixed by a Bob the Builder DVD Wwe got him. Its either that or all the cars he has to play with. Have to say I'm proud of him since he loves them so much without My intervention.
DD [7m] has been eating great and moving along the floor rather easily. She's not crawling, but she can roll over until she's where she wants to be.
Yesterday after shopping Wwe took them to the park out here. She had fun laying on a towel out in the sun. He was preoccupied with picking up and playing with the gravel or climbing up the slide. Leave it to My son to figure out the hardest way to get to the top of the slide and actually do it.
That's about it for now. Hopefully soon I'll actually get to post all of these online.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
While Away Cinco : Lazy Day
Talk about a lazy day. The trio of Uus (Me, DS [21m], DD [6m]) are just now getting out of bed. I haven't slept in for several weeks now, and that's just counting weekends. During the week it's been months. DD tends to get up early, and I think its because the wifey getting ready wakes her up. Oh well, this is nice now but its going to screw with the daily scedule so its only going to be a one time thing or a very rare thing.
And yesterday I completely forgot about one of the more important things thats happened in this house, SEX!. Normally its not that important but when its the first time in months [since Wwe found out the third is on the way] it moves up on the priority list. Its nice when a bit of nuzzling and heavy petting turns into sex and someone doesn't wake up during it.
And that's it so far, maybe I'll have more later.
And yesterday I completely forgot about one of the more important things thats happened in this house, SEX!. Normally its not that important but when its the first time in months [since Wwe found out the third is on the way] it moves up on the priority list. Its nice when a bit of nuzzling and heavy petting turns into sex and someone doesn't wake up during it.
And that's it so far, maybe I'll have more later.
Monday, March 10, 2008
While Away Four : Spreading News
Finally called the family yesterday and spread the news of the next kiddo. Excitement all around like I figured. She's still waiting to tell until Wwe know what it will be, and that will be in a couple weeks.
Wwe managed to blow through over 5 grand [tax refund plus paycheck] in a couple weeks. Kinda nice but kinda scary. This weekend was mostly clothes shopping for her. Speaking of which, it is possible to feel proud of a son and embarased at the same time. Wwe were in a chain clothing store in a strip mall and he peeked under the door of an occupied changing room while she was trying on clothes. Also got a few things for the kids and for the house. Managed to get the shelf up over the washer and to get a knockoff Magic Bullet thats working well. Ground a whole pound of Parm-Regiano the other day then made applesauce from steemed apples for the DD [6m] today. I also got a palm that actually works!! And is color!! For $26!! My faith is the Goodwill Computer Stores auctions is restored. First I got several that were duds for $15, then a nice one with a burnt motherboard [didn't know till after] for $45, and now this one for $26. Just need to DL software once Wwe get net back and buy a couple memory sticks for it. Kinda sucks since everything else I have uses SD but oh well, I'll be able to get some reading/writing done when not on the comp. Now I can take My time in building a work comp for Myself.
Well both kids are down and I'm already showered so gonna try and get a few things done around here. Later.
Wwe managed to blow through over 5 grand [tax refund plus paycheck] in a couple weeks. Kinda nice but kinda scary. This weekend was mostly clothes shopping for her. Speaking of which, it is possible to feel proud of a son and embarased at the same time. Wwe were in a chain clothing store in a strip mall and he peeked under the door of an occupied changing room while she was trying on clothes. Also got a few things for the kids and for the house. Managed to get the shelf up over the washer and to get a knockoff Magic Bullet thats working well. Ground a whole pound of Parm-Regiano the other day then made applesauce from steemed apples for the DD [6m] today. I also got a palm that actually works!! And is color!! For $26!! My faith is the Goodwill Computer Stores auctions is restored. First I got several that were duds for $15, then a nice one with a burnt motherboard [didn't know till after] for $45, and now this one for $26. Just need to DL software once Wwe get net back and buy a couple memory sticks for it. Kinda sucks since everything else I have uses SD but oh well, I'll be able to get some reading/writing done when not on the comp. Now I can take My time in building a work comp for Myself.
Well both kids are down and I'm already showered so gonna try and get a few things done around here. Later.
Friday, March 7, 2008
While Away III : More Milestones
New milestones, but they are somewhat diminished by the fact theyre both fussy today. It's all that I can do to keep them from screaming their lungs out at the same time. For the moment they're distracted so lets see if I can get this typed out.
DS [21m] hasn't peed in the potty since the last update, but he did go number two. Helped flush it too. It's still going to take time but this is great progress. I'm also trying to work on his vocabulary more. Baby Einstein DVDs are the easiest tool, but I'm reading to him and singing sometimes as well. His vocabulary might not be the greatest but his comprehension is wonderful. Wwe can give him simple tasks and he'll do them usually, plus he understands/associates several words. Cause and effect comprehension is there too. So in the end vocabulary isn't a major concern if he's advancing with other milestones.
DD [6m] is still doing great with food. Her hair is starting to curl too. I knew it was coming but didn't think it would be so soon. She also tends to tripod more often now. And for those of you out there without kids or an inkling what that means its simple, balacing on 3 points like her knees and a hand. There's not really much else new with her, she'll start progressing leaps and bounds soon I'm sure.
Both of them got to see their first snow today, as there was a thin blanket on the ground still when Wwe woke up. An inch, maybe less, is about all I want to live with. It won't last long atleast since its supose to be in the 60s this weekend. And I thought FL's weather was a constant flux, they have nothing on Uus. Speaking of that abysmal state, I really should make an effort to make nice with the relations, but they constantly piss Me the hell off by omitting important information 'for Myown good'. Things like illness and cancer and being on deaths door. Oh, lets not forget about finding out that My father remarried from My mother. Not even a year, and mind you I haven't heard from him since August, and before that not since Wwe first moved out this way.
I'm leaving this as is before I think about it too much and decide to call everyone this weekend and rip them verbally over the phone. Out.
DS [21m] hasn't peed in the potty since the last update, but he did go number two. Helped flush it too. It's still going to take time but this is great progress. I'm also trying to work on his vocabulary more. Baby Einstein DVDs are the easiest tool, but I'm reading to him and singing sometimes as well. His vocabulary might not be the greatest but his comprehension is wonderful. Wwe can give him simple tasks and he'll do them usually, plus he understands/associates several words. Cause and effect comprehension is there too. So in the end vocabulary isn't a major concern if he's advancing with other milestones.
DD [6m] is still doing great with food. Her hair is starting to curl too. I knew it was coming but didn't think it would be so soon. She also tends to tripod more often now. And for those of you out there without kids or an inkling what that means its simple, balacing on 3 points like her knees and a hand. There's not really much else new with her, she'll start progressing leaps and bounds soon I'm sure.
Both of them got to see their first snow today, as there was a thin blanket on the ground still when Wwe woke up. An inch, maybe less, is about all I want to live with. It won't last long atleast since its supose to be in the 60s this weekend. And I thought FL's weather was a constant flux, they have nothing on Uus. Speaking of that abysmal state, I really should make an effort to make nice with the relations, but they constantly piss Me the hell off by omitting important information 'for Myown good'. Things like illness and cancer and being on deaths door. Oh, lets not forget about finding out that My father remarried from My mother. Not even a year, and mind you I haven't heard from him since August, and before that not since Wwe first moved out this way.
I'm leaving this as is before I think about it too much and decide to call everyone this weekend and rip them verbally over the phone. Out.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
While Away B : New Milestones!
DS [21m] is now in cloth diapers during the day, as I mentioned, and already its paying off. I may have to wash them every other day but just last night he peed on the potty. Litterally ON, but still the fact he did it while sitting on the potty is all I care about. He's also associating the wet diaper with sitting on the potty already
too. I may have to put him on it or change him nearly every half hour but thats fine. Its not like I'm going anywhere. And if it works for him then I've already got another tool to get his little sis and little little bro/sis trained. Side note, he crawled under the futon while I was typing this to retrive a toy. I really need to block that off.
DD [6m] is making milestones too. She may do it randomly but she can roll over on her own, from back to stomach that is. She's done it a grand total of 3 times now. We've also bought her some of those Gerber Graduates fruit puffs and she seems to like them. Ofcourse so does her big brother. This weekend Wwe'll be looking into getting a knockoff version of the Magic Bullet and seeing how that works for making her food.
On a personal note I feel sleep deprived even though I don't recall waking up during the night with nearly the frequency I usually do. [Breaking in. Potty time and he's sitting there with a new book Wwe got him with cars that makes sounds. Did I mention he found a Hot Wheels he liked at Wally World, a '68 Cougar. Yay!! He went in the potty again. Ok back to Oour regularly sceduled blog.] Trying to avoid the caffine mornings again. Not pleasant when it really kicks in. Wwe have a pretty fully stocked freezer now too. Lots of meat [No roasts though] for lots of different meals. Going to be getting more at the end of the month too from a church run program. Good bit of food for $30 a month, plus you can get extras like a pack of 10lbs of grilling meat. I might have to get a grill here soon at this rate. But first a bit more storage/organization. I should be able to get the shelf up over the washer this weekend.
Signing out for now, nap time for DS and DD is already down...which means a shower for Me.
too. I may have to put him on it or change him nearly every half hour but thats fine. Its not like I'm going anywhere. And if it works for him then I've already got another tool to get his little sis and little little bro/sis trained. Side note, he crawled under the futon while I was typing this to retrive a toy. I really need to block that off.
DD [6m] is making milestones too. She may do it randomly but she can roll over on her own, from back to stomach that is. She's done it a grand total of 3 times now. We've also bought her some of those Gerber Graduates fruit puffs and she seems to like them. Ofcourse so does her big brother. This weekend Wwe'll be looking into getting a knockoff version of the Magic Bullet and seeing how that works for making her food.
On a personal note I feel sleep deprived even though I don't recall waking up during the night with nearly the frequency I usually do. [Breaking in. Potty time and he's sitting there with a new book Wwe got him with cars that makes sounds. Did I mention he found a Hot Wheels he liked at Wally World, a '68 Cougar. Yay!! He went in the potty again. Ok back to Oour regularly sceduled blog.] Trying to avoid the caffine mornings again. Not pleasant when it really kicks in. Wwe have a pretty fully stocked freezer now too. Lots of meat [No roasts though] for lots of different meals. Going to be getting more at the end of the month too from a church run program. Good bit of food for $30 a month, plus you can get extras like a pack of 10lbs of grilling meat. I might have to get a grill here soon at this rate. But first a bit more storage/organization. I should be able to get the shelf up over the washer this weekend.
Signing out for now, nap time for DS and DD is already down...which means a shower for Me.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
While Away 1 : Money Spent
I'm sure anyone that reads My blog has noticed the long gap between posts, longer than usual anyways. Is there anyone that reads this anyways? Oh well, I digress. Long story short, Wwe've been without net for a bit and don't intend on getting it back until we can get cable. Which is soon, very soon. So I figured I would type a few offline updates now and then to post later. If I manage to find a way to alter the post date/time it will reflect when I actually wrote the post. Without further delay, first the children since they are ofcourse the most important part of these updates.
DS [21m] is doing well as usual. His vocabulary is still on the limited side, which makes potty training a little on the difficult side. I've begun putting him in cloth diapers. I know, I'm either very brave or very foolish...probably a bit of both. He tries to tug at them and pull them off once theyre wet so that should make things go a bit quicker. I was trying to catch him going number 2 so I could put him on the potty but he did it while I was putting his little sister down.
DD [6m] is doing well too. Wwe've started her on baby food and she loves it. Her big brother was never this good of an eater when it came to baby food, then again I can't blame him. Thankfully Wwe found someplace locally [Target] that sells the food processor I want. That way I can make her food rather than us buying it. I know I know, less than $0.50 a jar of food that she devours in a day or less. But I could buy enough to fill half a dozen jars for that same amount. Wwe also got her a bouncer just like her big brother had around her age, and much like him she likes it for short stents but after that she wants out.
On to household items. The greatest of which is a dryer [FINALLY!!]. Now I don't have to wash clothes then take them down to the complex laundry room, I just have to step outside. Its debut was last night with a total of 5 loads of laundry, and unfortunately it was freezing and windy so I had to contend with the cold and a door slamming against Me. Next and almost as important was a new set of pots and pans. It's not the set I was originally considering but that's a moot point. Emerilware from Allclad. Dear god how could I have ever cooked anything worth a damn on the cheap cookware I used to use!? I've now used every piece save for the cast iron griddle we got [as a free gift] and I love love LOVE them. I wish I had gotten them sooner, like when I was 15. I know they didn't have them then but still, you get the point. I can see why professional chefs spend so much on Allclad. Wwe got more tools for Me too, and a couple places to store them since the shed is now home to the dryer. I plan on putting up a shelf for a bit more storage but that will have to wait until the weather is nicer.
That's all for now, I'll say more when there's more to say. Oh and did I mention I have the perfect wife? So indulgant. The cookware, the tools, plus she knows where things are in Lowes if that says how often we go there. Ok now I'm done.
DS [21m] is doing well as usual. His vocabulary is still on the limited side, which makes potty training a little on the difficult side. I've begun putting him in cloth diapers. I know, I'm either very brave or very foolish...probably a bit of both. He tries to tug at them and pull them off once theyre wet so that should make things go a bit quicker. I was trying to catch him going number 2 so I could put him on the potty but he did it while I was putting his little sister down.
DD [6m] is doing well too. Wwe've started her on baby food and she loves it. Her big brother was never this good of an eater when it came to baby food, then again I can't blame him. Thankfully Wwe found someplace locally [Target] that sells the food processor I want. That way I can make her food rather than us buying it. I know I know, less than $0.50 a jar of food that she devours in a day or less. But I could buy enough to fill half a dozen jars for that same amount. Wwe also got her a bouncer just like her big brother had around her age, and much like him she likes it for short stents but after that she wants out.
On to household items. The greatest of which is a dryer [FINALLY!!]. Now I don't have to wash clothes then take them down to the complex laundry room, I just have to step outside. Its debut was last night with a total of 5 loads of laundry, and unfortunately it was freezing and windy so I had to contend with the cold and a door slamming against Me. Next and almost as important was a new set of pots and pans. It's not the set I was originally considering but that's a moot point. Emerilware from Allclad. Dear god how could I have ever cooked anything worth a damn on the cheap cookware I used to use!? I've now used every piece save for the cast iron griddle we got [as a free gift] and I love love LOVE them. I wish I had gotten them sooner, like when I was 15. I know they didn't have them then but still, you get the point. I can see why professional chefs spend so much on Allclad. Wwe got more tools for Me too, and a couple places to store them since the shed is now home to the dryer. I plan on putting up a shelf for a bit more storage but that will have to wait until the weather is nicer.
That's all for now, I'll say more when there's more to say. Oh and did I mention I have the perfect wife? So indulgant. The cookware, the tools, plus she knows where things are in Lowes if that says how often we go there. Ok now I'm done.
Monday, February 4, 2008
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Belated Update
As I've said several times before I'm not really one to update on a regular basis.
DS [20m] is doing well as usual. His hair is still unruly and hes showing an obsession for cars. Let him play outside today before the Superbowl Commercials [Yes that's why I watch, though I've been paying more attention to instructables.com] and couldn't get him back in without croc tears.
DD [5m] is doing well as usual. Kinda bald up front like her BB. She pets the kitten more than I do now. Both go down at a decent hour so its a wonder Wwe don't as well. Oh well, that's neither here nor there.
On a personal note I'll be attempting the monumentous task of building a captain's desk soon to give Me a comfortable place to write. And I've had more time to do so too since Wwe've given up chat in order to better our relationship. Also, I've been disassemblings all sorts of electronics to canablize for who knows what. Thinking of a steamerpunk inspired wireless keyboard outta wood and brass. Also a wood case for a microATX later. But the desk first.
That's it for now.
DS [20m] is doing well as usual. His hair is still unruly and hes showing an obsession for cars. Let him play outside today before the Superbowl Commercials [Yes that's why I watch, though I've been paying more attention to instructables.com] and couldn't get him back in without croc tears.
DD [5m] is doing well as usual. Kinda bald up front like her BB. She pets the kitten more than I do now. Both go down at a decent hour so its a wonder Wwe don't as well. Oh well, that's neither here nor there.
On a personal note I'll be attempting the monumentous task of building a captain's desk soon to give Me a comfortable place to write. And I've had more time to do so too since Wwe've given up chat in order to better our relationship. Also, I've been disassemblings all sorts of electronics to canablize for who knows what. Thinking of a steamerpunk inspired wireless keyboard outta wood and brass. Also a wood case for a microATX later. But the desk first.
That's it for now.
Monday, January 21, 2008
A Father's Love
Endearing title huh? The reality not so much. First the backstory. The man I knew as My father for the first 5 years of My life wasn't My biological propogator, which is all for the better. After all, I don't have many [minus the m] fond memories of the man. Come age 6 the long and arduous task of adjusting to the reality of My birth came.
For the next 15 years it became a love/hate relationship. Or is that love to hate? Either way there are a few fond memories; baseball, cars, LCSO Explorer's. But, in the end there remained a deep seeded resentment that was only recently begining to truely die.
When it came time to leave Hell for the last time the family was splitting. He got an apt on the other side of the county pretty much leaving the wifey and Me to take care of the house and property that were getting sold from under us. In reality it was more on Me since she had just given birth to our DS [19m].
That little fact was offset by the revelation that it wasn't entirely his fault he got a late start in My life. My recently passed grandmother had a hand in it, as did My mother. So a resent him moment became a resent the entire family moment. That wasn't a far step from how I already felt about them. What can I say, My family dynamics have always alienated Me.
Fast forward a year later, after the move half way across the country. Wwe just recently moved from a two bed apt next to a college to just outside of town into a nicer cheaper two bed apt. While I'm unpacking the kids' room I get a call from said astranged father. Mind you, this is the first call since leaving Hell. He gives the sentimental spill, mentions the new grandchild DD [5m], and would love to get pics. I agree, ofcourse that was just to be civil. I figure be civil maybe he can try to make amends.
I take the next step, calling the next weekend with no answer or reply until the middle of the week. Trying would be nice, but what can I expect. Much of the same bullshit is exchanged, I tell him were a couple of pics of the DD [5m] are. The best part is coming, bare with Me.
Last weekend I find out two things at once about said father from My mother, who's now divorced for time number 2 and dating. Great for her I think, especially after the bit of news I found out about before that. Apparently he, not the bf the father, went in for heart surgery to have a stint put in. I knew that was coming eventually, he wasn't the healthiest person. The next bit of info was the bombshell. Not only had he already been dating, he was remarried.
A bit quick I think, plus not only have I not heard from him in nearly a year. Mind you, he has My email and the cellphone number. Even if he doesn't have the cell number [caller id makes that impossible] I talk to My grandmother [his mother] every week or so, which means he as access to it. Mind you, I found this out from his exwife [who he divorced within 4 months of us leaving Hell, nice that they tried to hide it while Wwe were living there....not really] but she found it out from a friend that goes to the same church. Finding out something like that third hand is a bit insulting.
So the next weekend, this past one, I call the grandmother to chit chat. She brings up the stint, mentioning that his bad health actually spared his life as the plaque was all that was keeping him from bleeding to death. I also found out that My family still hides things from Me to keep from rocking the boat when it makes it that much worse when I do find out.
Well that night I start to wonder am I as fucked up a husband as My father was. After a sleepy no from the wifey I lay awake wondering if thats just a placating comment so I will leave her alone and go to sleep. After an hour or two of sleep the day starts anew and I actually wish him well in Myown fucked up way. Obvioulsy he did wonders with Me, his first son, so I wish him well in that if he has kids I hope he doesn't fuck them up as much as he did Me....even though I SERIOUSLY doubt he will live to see them enter adulthood. In the end I'll just strive to do everything opposite the father figures in both our lives and I should do great.
Fin.
For the next 15 years it became a love/hate relationship. Or is that love to hate? Either way there are a few fond memories; baseball, cars, LCSO Explorer's. But, in the end there remained a deep seeded resentment that was only recently begining to truely die.
When it came time to leave Hell for the last time the family was splitting. He got an apt on the other side of the county pretty much leaving the wifey and Me to take care of the house and property that were getting sold from under us. In reality it was more on Me since she had just given birth to our DS [19m].
That little fact was offset by the revelation that it wasn't entirely his fault he got a late start in My life. My recently passed grandmother had a hand in it, as did My mother. So a resent him moment became a resent the entire family moment. That wasn't a far step from how I already felt about them. What can I say, My family dynamics have always alienated Me.
Fast forward a year later, after the move half way across the country. Wwe just recently moved from a two bed apt next to a college to just outside of town into a nicer cheaper two bed apt. While I'm unpacking the kids' room I get a call from said astranged father. Mind you, this is the first call since leaving Hell. He gives the sentimental spill, mentions the new grandchild DD [5m], and would love to get pics. I agree, ofcourse that was just to be civil. I figure be civil maybe he can try to make amends.
I take the next step, calling the next weekend with no answer or reply until the middle of the week. Trying would be nice, but what can I expect. Much of the same bullshit is exchanged, I tell him were a couple of pics of the DD [5m] are. The best part is coming, bare with Me.
Last weekend I find out two things at once about said father from My mother, who's now divorced for time number 2 and dating. Great for her I think, especially after the bit of news I found out about before that. Apparently he, not the bf the father, went in for heart surgery to have a stint put in. I knew that was coming eventually, he wasn't the healthiest person. The next bit of info was the bombshell. Not only had he already been dating, he was remarried.
A bit quick I think, plus not only have I not heard from him in nearly a year. Mind you, he has My email and the cellphone number. Even if he doesn't have the cell number [caller id makes that impossible] I talk to My grandmother [his mother] every week or so, which means he as access to it. Mind you, I found this out from his exwife [who he divorced within 4 months of us leaving Hell, nice that they tried to hide it while Wwe were living there....not really] but she found it out from a friend that goes to the same church. Finding out something like that third hand is a bit insulting.
So the next weekend, this past one, I call the grandmother to chit chat. She brings up the stint, mentioning that his bad health actually spared his life as the plaque was all that was keeping him from bleeding to death. I also found out that My family still hides things from Me to keep from rocking the boat when it makes it that much worse when I do find out.
Well that night I start to wonder am I as fucked up a husband as My father was. After a sleepy no from the wifey I lay awake wondering if thats just a placating comment so I will leave her alone and go to sleep. After an hour or two of sleep the day starts anew and I actually wish him well in Myown fucked up way. Obvioulsy he did wonders with Me, his first son, so I wish him well in that if he has kids I hope he doesn't fuck them up as much as he did Me....even though I SERIOUSLY doubt he will live to see them enter adulthood. In the end I'll just strive to do everything opposite the father figures in both our lives and I should do great.
Fin.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Milestones
DS [19m] began stacking wooden alphabet blocks today, unfortunately he has My temperment so them falling was frustrating him. So while Wwe were out getting the remainder of our groceries we bought him wooden building blocks. He's still down for a nap, but after Wwe'll see how he takes to his new toy.
DD [5m] was sitting tripod this morning as well while her big bro was playing with his blocks. Wwe noticed too that when she was on her belly she has started scooting herself backwards. Paired with the fact just last week she started getting really good at turning in circles Wwe think she'll be crawling before long. Guess it helps to have her big bro to mimic.
DD [5m] was sitting tripod this morning as well while her big bro was playing with his blocks. Wwe noticed too that when she was on her belly she has started scooting herself backwards. Paired with the fact just last week she started getting really good at turning in circles Wwe think she'll be crawling before long. Guess it helps to have her big bro to mimic.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
An Update
And this is why I don't regularly keep a blog, I don't regularly update. In the time since a last real update the DD [Darling Daughter, the youngest so far] has cut 2 teeth, started rolling over, moved on to rice cereal which she eats better than the DS [Darling Son obviously, oldest for us]. And that's about it. Other than the fucked up things in My head My life is pretty normal and quiet. Signing off for now.
Friday, January 11, 2008
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Tuesday, January 1, 2008
A Cycle Renewed
Let us start with this when we woke up. It was with a back rub, firm enough to relax muscles without being forceful. This alone told of a great start to the new year but then things improved drastically. After she finished I rolled from My stomach to My side and pressed My back agianst her lightly expecting an arm around Me and some cuddling while still half asleep. At first thats just what I got, but after several long moments her hand inched down and began petting and stroking.
This was even more promising. Once I'm worked up and ready to roll over and do a bit of fondling and playing Myself someone wakes up. Thats fine, after all, she's off from work today and through practice and patience I've gotten the princess [4 months old] and baby godzilla [19 months old] to both nap around noon and stay down till 2 atleast. So whats started will be finished later....
Atleast that was the initial assumption. Once both of the kiddos were down I learned differently. Now I'm not saying I was expecting an hour and a half long hard fucking. That would just be ignorant and insensitive on My part. She's in the middle of her first trimester with the third pregnancy, and this time the sickness is a bit worse than before. So when they went down I was hoping and expecting a bit of playing, maybe some oral or just a bit of stroking then I would finish.
Me finishing has never been a problem, she does so well at working Me up that I'm worked up for a few days. So much that thinking about some of the things we've done is all it takes for Me to need another release. So when she can't physically help she does so with a few words to spark some thoughts. In the end, sex and even masterbation for Me isn't just a matter of doing it. There's is emotion there, so if she doesn't want anything to do with it I'm just not interested.
The problem lies in her working Me up then wanting nothing to do with it. I love being teased, under the assumption that in the near future there will be a release. We've had conversations about her doing this and how much I hate it...we've had arguements about it...I've punished her over it...but it still happens. Not to say she doesn't improve, for a time, after I confront her about it.
Back to the matter at hand, todays digression. Both kids are down, and while she was in the kitchen I slip in and press close to her. I run My hands over her body, kiss the back of her neck. She doesn't react, not in a favorable way anyways, so I whisper 'both kids are asleep, time for both of us to strip.' Mind you, humor is a big part of our relationship and more than one time Me joking about wanting sex has ended up with us having great sex. Her answer was no, 'I don't think so' to be exact [I think]. As I walk away I say 'I expected that.' Cold. Monotone. And a beat later 'Yet you still tried, I have to give you kudos for that.'
At that point I was ready to either scream and yell or shut down. Given My violence tendancies when I yell I chose to shut down, sitting down at the computer in silence and waiting/watching her for a moment. No sign of remorse, pentance, or even that she realizes shes done it yet again. So I went to take a shower, fume a bit in the hot water, and then came and typed this up. Still no clue that she's upset Me, over on the couch eating a piece of cake and doing puzzles.
That's it for now....we'll see what she says after reading this.
This was even more promising. Once I'm worked up and ready to roll over and do a bit of fondling and playing Myself someone wakes up. Thats fine, after all, she's off from work today and through practice and patience I've gotten the princess [4 months old] and baby godzilla [19 months old] to both nap around noon and stay down till 2 atleast. So whats started will be finished later....
Atleast that was the initial assumption. Once both of the kiddos were down I learned differently. Now I'm not saying I was expecting an hour and a half long hard fucking. That would just be ignorant and insensitive on My part. She's in the middle of her first trimester with the third pregnancy, and this time the sickness is a bit worse than before. So when they went down I was hoping and expecting a bit of playing, maybe some oral or just a bit of stroking then I would finish.
Me finishing has never been a problem, she does so well at working Me up that I'm worked up for a few days. So much that thinking about some of the things we've done is all it takes for Me to need another release. So when she can't physically help she does so with a few words to spark some thoughts. In the end, sex and even masterbation for Me isn't just a matter of doing it. There's is emotion there, so if she doesn't want anything to do with it I'm just not interested.
The problem lies in her working Me up then wanting nothing to do with it. I love being teased, under the assumption that in the near future there will be a release. We've had conversations about her doing this and how much I hate it...we've had arguements about it...I've punished her over it...but it still happens. Not to say she doesn't improve, for a time, after I confront her about it.
Back to the matter at hand, todays digression. Both kids are down, and while she was in the kitchen I slip in and press close to her. I run My hands over her body, kiss the back of her neck. She doesn't react, not in a favorable way anyways, so I whisper 'both kids are asleep, time for both of us to strip.' Mind you, humor is a big part of our relationship and more than one time Me joking about wanting sex has ended up with us having great sex. Her answer was no, 'I don't think so' to be exact [I think]. As I walk away I say 'I expected that.' Cold. Monotone. And a beat later 'Yet you still tried, I have to give you kudos for that.'
At that point I was ready to either scream and yell or shut down. Given My violence tendancies when I yell I chose to shut down, sitting down at the computer in silence and waiting/watching her for a moment. No sign of remorse, pentance, or even that she realizes shes done it yet again. So I went to take a shower, fume a bit in the hot water, and then came and typed this up. Still no clue that she's upset Me, over on the couch eating a piece of cake and doing puzzles.
That's it for now....we'll see what she says after reading this.
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