A Swell Of Darkness

I know the wifey is loving and considerate, and 99% of the time she is a very good girl. The problem right now is mostly with Me. I have a few darker delights that I won't own up to publicly, even on an anonamous blog that no one reads. Ofcourse she knows about it, and didn't overreact when she found out. Which says a lot about how much love there is in the relationship. The problem comes during these long stints of no or sporatic intamacy. Last night after several not so subtle hints something needed to be said. During these long stints those thoughts and desires well up at an alarming rate until I need to do something about it. And I did. Last week I indulged those urges but have been hiding the evidence, up until now anyways since I'm removing it completely like she asked Me to do before. I don't like the fact that this...sickness...is rooted so deeply in Me. I just try to survive with it until I figure out how to be rid of it.