Yesterday I was feeling aggressive, as usual, which rarely pays off honestly. The aggression was turned away, but then she delighted Me by unfastening My boxers. I'll not bore [read spoil, I'm trying to get paid as a writer after all] any of you with the exact details but as I stood there I got to enjoy her use her lips, tongue and hands to please Me.
That is until someone began squirming, as they tend to do after 7 months in a cramp space. So I sat and got comfortable while she recovered. Eventually she moved to the floor on all fours to help ease the pressure [I assume, never had a head pressing into My pelvis]. After a short time she began another unexpected supprise, a bit of foot worship.
Needless to say that was more than enough to prompt Me to seek some relief while the kids were still sleeping. So sitting there with her rear hiked high in the air and her lips wandering and pleasing My foot I came. Hopefully things will improve along this same path.
Until later...
Monday, June 23, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
To Bind And To Conquer
I know it's been over a month since My last post. Things have been...strained...to say the least. For a VERY short recap sex has been mostly a no go still, maybe once a month, and because of a misunderstanding last night it might stay like that a while longer. All the pent up anger and frustration came to a head last night and Wwe ended up having a long conversation late into the night leaving Uus on little to no sleep today.
What it boils down to is that things have changed in Oour lives so quickly Wwe've never really taken time to reevaluate what Wwe want and how Wwe plan on going about providing it. In that respect I have just as much fault as she does and I wouldn't begin to say otherwise.
Since I have been doing a lot of soul searching when it comes to My writing it was nothing to shift gears and think long and hard on My relationship. From the things she had to say last night it boils down to what I want and how I want things to be in Oour life. That is infinitely simple yet so utterly complex in the same moment.
Boiling down everything to a basic level and building from there is simple enough, the real questions come when she enters the picture. What if she can't commit herself to those basic desires? What if she does, but not whole-heartily? How long would she be able to keep up a facade if she wasn't fully committed? What would I do if it fell apart again?
Then again I might just be over analyzing. After all these are going to be basic wants and expectations. Simple things that won't be hard to follow. I mean after all despite enjoying the bondage aspect of BDSM relationships its not a constant desire in Me. I enjoy the D/s aspect of it much more...almost to a fault some might say. With enough sensuality I could grow quite comfortable with just D/s.
Offline I'm working on a list of those base desires, trying to keep it simple but describing them fully enough that there is no doubt what expectations will be. Once they are finished and she knows them though what do I do as punishment for falling short of those expectations? I ask this first because rewards are so much easier. Physical punishment has more Cons than Pros usually, emotional and mental likewise. Things akin to 'timeout' are punishment to Me as well so never set well with Me.
Why think about punishment already? Everyone slips up. And yes, I know self-wrought punishment is far worse than what anyone else could devise but without proper rewards and punishments then its just human nature to become complacent.
With all that said I'm going to close this off for now and come back to it later after a bit more thinking and working.
What it boils down to is that things have changed in Oour lives so quickly Wwe've never really taken time to reevaluate what Wwe want and how Wwe plan on going about providing it. In that respect I have just as much fault as she does and I wouldn't begin to say otherwise.
Since I have been doing a lot of soul searching when it comes to My writing it was nothing to shift gears and think long and hard on My relationship. From the things she had to say last night it boils down to what I want and how I want things to be in Oour life. That is infinitely simple yet so utterly complex in the same moment.
Boiling down everything to a basic level and building from there is simple enough, the real questions come when she enters the picture. What if she can't commit herself to those basic desires? What if she does, but not whole-heartily? How long would she be able to keep up a facade if she wasn't fully committed? What would I do if it fell apart again?
Then again I might just be over analyzing. After all these are going to be basic wants and expectations. Simple things that won't be hard to follow. I mean after all despite enjoying the bondage aspect of BDSM relationships its not a constant desire in Me. I enjoy the D/s aspect of it much more...almost to a fault some might say. With enough sensuality I could grow quite comfortable with just D/s.
Offline I'm working on a list of those base desires, trying to keep it simple but describing them fully enough that there is no doubt what expectations will be. Once they are finished and she knows them though what do I do as punishment for falling short of those expectations? I ask this first because rewards are so much easier. Physical punishment has more Cons than Pros usually, emotional and mental likewise. Things akin to 'timeout' are punishment to Me as well so never set well with Me.
Why think about punishment already? Everyone slips up. And yes, I know self-wrought punishment is far worse than what anyone else could devise but without proper rewards and punishments then its just human nature to become complacent.
With all that said I'm going to close this off for now and come back to it later after a bit more thinking and working.
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